After a looong break, I have missed writing. And hey! I celebrated my 24th birthday 5 days ago (I feel grown up…with many others huhu!)
Today, I pen down few random reflections still on STEM . For those who may not know, STEM is an acronym for Short Term Experience in Ministry, a volunteer experience with FOCUS Kenya geared towards giving young graduates an opportunity to serve God among Students in Universities & Colleges and society on a short-term basis (one year).
Even though it should run for one year, some of us (who God favors enough… in retrospect I call it favor) are usually requested to consider volunteering for yet another year. And so I was asked to consider, and today marks the 23rd month since I started doing STEM in August 2016… and 44 days to the end of the two years!!
I have learnt and grown in the art of penning down reflections, thoughts, frustrations but also joys, wonderful moments, among others…and today, looking at my journals, I believe that STEM is an opportunity that God, in His mercies gave me to mould me and draw me closer to Himself. Many times, society makes us believe that we are really sacrificing for God. We are made to believe that God will ‘repay us for what we are doing for Him’, and that He won’t let our labor in Him pass unnoticed. Subconsciously and if we aren’t careful, we begin to expect blessings from Him. We begin to look at Him as if He should pay back.
In to it, we realize we cannot box God. We realize He is eternal, that His ways are higher than ours and His thoughts beyond ours (Isa. 55:9). We realize He is inviting us to partner with Him so that we may see things as He does (which is surrender) and once we do, we become content in Him. We allow Him to lead, we relinquish control. And having done so, we start finding Him, and finding Him good. We stop competing with friends and colleagues, we live each day at a time. In place of throwing tantrums at Him, we blindly hold His righteous right hand, and walk with Him.
It is after surrendering control that today, in retrospect, I am convinced it is His mercies that brought me to STEM…He looked at me mercifully, and called me not for one year but two, to work on me. I can move around in contentment and simplicity. I can live within my means and overlook wants comfortably.
I have learnt to find God, and to find Him good! Lead Lord, thy servant is following!